Ok. I lived through days 8 and 9, which always suck. I had cramps on day 8 and only an ignorable twinge or two on day 9. That’s good for me. Usually I get strongish periody cramps on day 9 and I lose all hope.
Now, after my near psychotic break on Monday, I am trying to prepare myself for disappointment just in case. This is hard for an optimist. Hard, I think, but a little healthy. If I’m not pregnant, I’m not pregnant. I can still do this. I can still try. I still have a more room on my credit card for more sperm. If I run out of that, I can always re-start our fresh donor search. All is not lost.
Hopefully all is not necessary. I may test tomorrow. Would that be foolhardy? I figure it is early enough to not create the much-hated test-then-bleed phenomenon, late enough to possibly almost have some kind of hint of a positive test, and early enough to not lose my $hit if it is negative because it is so early. If you understood that last sentence I give you an A+.